Artistic struggles and insecurities

I decided to share with you one photoshoot I’ve done half a year ago. I haven’t posted it anywhere, because I wasn’t sure it had good results.

My friend, the model of these pictures, likes edgy and artsy stuff. And I wanted to do something interesting for a long long time. Consequently, we had to join our thoughts and ideas to do something creative together. When the idea of a photoshoot in a bathtub came to my mind, she was the first one , maybe even the only one, to pop up as a potential model. In addition, at that time, we could use her bathtub for a shoot, which otherwise would not be possible.

I imagined a bathtub full of flowers, but when we went to the store, all we could find were roses. And roses were not part of my imaginary results. So, we stole some simpler flowers from a garden of a living complex. I’m sure it was funny to watch two girls pluck those poor flowers out of the garden in the darkness. We were somewhat nervous of getting caught, especially, since she was living in that apartment complex. In 10 minutes, enough damages was done; although when we came back to her place, we realized we had almost no flowers.

Anyway, the whole thing was extremely fun. It was a good experience. But when I started going through the results, I wasn’t so sure that the pictures turned out well. First of all, the noise. The annoying noise that makes me depressed every single time it appears in my photos.

Although stumbling upon these photos again, I took another “fresh” look at them. And to be honest, I think that the grain (not the noise, now) makes the pictures more dramatic and adds some artistic touch to it. Of course, the model is gorgeous – I don’t have to mention it. After all, maybe the pictures are not that bad at all. Maybe, for people that don’t know my final goal won’t notice the miniscule details that my producer’s eyes are searching for. Bottom line, and it’s not meant as an offense to anybody, random viewers do not examine the details of the photos like I do, looking for flaws.

The whole point of this post, I guess, is wondering what your opinions would be. And I’m not expecting “wow-amazings,” just want some critique from random people who would not know the whole story and my thoughts behind those pictures (oops, maybe telling the whole story wasn’t such a good idea).

Я решила поделиться с вами одной фотосессией я сделала полгода назад. Я не выставляла её нигде, потому что не была уверена в хорошем качестве рузультатов.

Моя подруга, модель этих фотографий, любит граничущий и художественный материал. А я хотела сделать что-то интересное на протяжении длительного времени. Следовательно, мы должны были обьединить наши мысли и идеи, чтобы сделать что-то творческое вместе. Когда идея фотосессии в ванной пришла мне в голову, она была первой, наверное даже единственной, кто всплывал в качестве потенциальной модели. Кроме того, в то время, у нас была возможность использовать её ванную для съемки, которая в противном случае была бы невозможна.

Я представляла себе ванну с цветами, но когда мы пошли в магазин, то всё, что мы смогли найти, были розы. А розы не были частью моих воображаемых результатов. Таким образом, мы украли какие-то простые цветы из сада жилого комплекса. Я уверена, что это было забавно наблюдать за двумя девушками срывающими эти бедные цветы в саду в темноте. Мы немного нервничали что попадемся, особенно, так как она жила в этом жилом комплексе. Через 10 минут, достаточный ущерб был  нанесен, но, когда мы вернулись, мы поняли, что почти никаких цветов у нас нет.

В любом случае, все это было очень весело. Это был хороший опыт. Но когда я начала просматривать результаты, я не была так уверена, что фотографии получились хорошими. Прежде всего, шум. Раздражающий шум, который вводит меня в депрессию каждый раз, когда он появляется на моих фотографиях.

Хотя наткнувшись на эти фотографии еще раз, я оценила их еще одним «свежим» взглядом. И, честно говоря, я думаю, что зерно (а не шум) делает фотографии более драматичным и добавляет некоторую художественность. Конечно, модель великолепна – я мне не надо говорить об этом. В конце концов, может быть, фотографии не так уж и плохие. Может быть, для людей, которые не знают моей конечной цели не заметят незначительные детали, которые мои глаза производителя ищут. В конце концов, и это не обида кому-либо, случайные зрители не рассматривают детали фотографий, как я, ища недостатки.

Весь смысл этого поста, я думаю, это интерес вашего мнения. И я не жду “вау-прекрасно,” просто хочу некоторой критики от случайных людей, которые не знали бы всей этой истории, и моих мыслей на счет этих фотографий (ой, может рассказывать всю историю было не такой уж хорошей идеей).

 

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6 thoughts

  1. I love the slight graininess here that the low light produced… it really sets a great mood. The lighting under her chin and the way her hands are positioned make for a very compelling image and the three candles in the soap dish provide just enough light to her face. This is actually some very skillful lighting… with just a handful of small candles.

    While I love black and white, I think for this particular shot, color works well; especially since you don’t have any back lighting to speak of. I was curious though how this would look in back and white, so I opened it up in Windows photo editor and fiddled a little… I desaturated the image, taking all the color out and then pushed the contrast all the way over. Wow! Yes… you have composed a very good image here. In color or black and white… a nice piece of art!

    Your model has a nice presence here; she doesn’t seem self-conscious at all. I would definitely encourage you to experiment with black and white. You can create some really startling images with some artful lighting and the right colors and contrast – the colors will give you your tonal range as they translate to shades of grey when you shoot in black and white.

    Best of luck.

    Veronica Marie

    • Wow. This is a very thoughtful comment. You definetely seem like you knwo what you’re talking about. Thank you for your suggestions. I should try black and white images.
      The model is definitely great – she feels very natural in front of the camera.
      Thank you for your kind words and advices!

  2. Hi, great to see that you are wanting to improve your photos, I think the thing that I love most about photography and Art in general is honesty- If I can see honesty in the subject then the work is on the way to being successful. Consequently if the work appears forced or it is trying to be something that it shouldn’t then the artist is not really being true to themselves or the nature of the thing itself.
    I think this shot would have been a little better if it was in B&W and your focus was on the tone. From what I can see this is what you were trying to achieve with the tea lights. Transfering your image to Black white lets you focus on the tone and how the model can best appear in the shoot. Light is sometimes very difficult to manage- particularly candles. The grainy effect that you disliked was low light levels. You can try a strong directional light to balance the subject with the background.
    Also telling a story to the viewer with your work lets the viewer engage with it. I read your story above and it was awesome! You went out with your friend had a fun time and stole some flowers, when you got back you realised that there were not as many as you thought. Telling that story with a group of photos would be very engaging to the viewer.
    Sorry if this comment is overly critical… I really didn’t mean it to be.

    • Oh no no no! Your comment was really fun! That’s like the biggest comment I’ve ever gotten and I got very interested in what you, a stranger to me, had to say. I’ll try to work with b/w and see how that turns out. The grain – yeah, I know the lights. But if we had turned on the lights in the room (which we did at first) the photos loose any… magical component, any mystery if you will. So, now I actually think that the grain add here some stylistical edge, like the picture was taken long long time ago in a darkness.
      Anyway, thank you very much for your comment. i feel like somebody actually put the thought into their critique of my work.

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